It was over a month since I last came here and made an entry. It has been a hell of a month. So many overwhelming moment! So much stress! It is shocking for me to read what I wrote down last and to contrast it with what I have been feeling lately. Fear can be so powerful in grabbing the heart and squeezing out the energy, the fun, and the daring spirit. Dear LORD, help me battle against fear so that I can be strong and courageous. When I let fear grab my heart, it takes so much longer to get things done and it does not even turn out good. Dear LORD, help me find security in you and leave no space for fear to creep in.
Dear LORD, thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for your presence and your faithfulness, even when I have no strength to draw close to you. Thank you for your timing that you never miss a deadline. For you, there is no deadline. Dear LORD, here I am, yielding my life and all of me to you. Dear LORD, all I am is YOURS. Lead me and guide me. Shape me and equip me. Prepare me and provide for me. You are my GOD. The hope of my heart. Hold me close to you, Abba Father!
Showing posts with label Prayers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Prayers. Show all posts
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
ODB - 1/14/2008
Revelation 2:1-7
Dear LORD, help me love with my first love. Keep me in reflection of how I first discovered your love, how refreshing it was, and how excited/satisfied/comforted & grateful I was. Dear LORD, keep me from never letting it grow old and cold. Keep my heart ablaze for you and you alone. Dear LORD, lead me and guide me and sustain me in this new semester and teach me your will and your wisdom. Love, Yours.
Dear LORD, help me love with my first love. Keep me in reflection of how I first discovered your love, how refreshing it was, and how excited/satisfied/comforted & grateful I was. Dear LORD, keep me from never letting it grow old and cold. Keep my heart ablaze for you and you alone. Dear LORD, lead me and guide me and sustain me in this new semester and teach me your will and your wisdom. Love, Yours.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Faith Walk - Nov. 30
* It is interesting how the staying in B came about so easily, when I had tried so hard without success. His provision beyond my knowing!
* It surely was nice to see NS again. It was nice of her to buy dinner for us. It was a jolly time to go sightseeing. Or should I have sticked to my plan of getting work done.
* I do feel overwhelmed as the departure date seems to come closer than I expected. Dear LORD, please give me YOUR peace, the peace that transcends all understanding. Dear LORD, help me prepare for the trip, spiritually, emotionally, physically, and practically.
* It was nice to have the first follow-up with Foundation material. :-) What a blessing and a joy it was to spend time together like that.
* My supervision pointed out my being overly active in BI during the intensive time of graduate school training. I know I have decided (probably since this summer) that I would make time for the things I really wanted to do, instead of letting the demands of graduate school run my life. However, am I now swinging too much the other way? I have always thought my increasingly active involvement as a result/reflection of my spiritual growth, God' s leading for me and His training opportunities to prepare me for what He has made me for. However, it is also a fact that I have been behind on my clinical record keeping and have not worked much, if at all, on my dissertation project. Is it really God's leading for me? Or am I letting my life run by urgency instead of importance? I guess this is a more general question regarding the pattern of my day-to-day living. Where is the balance between being planful and organized and being flexible? Dear LORD, please do help me become wiser with my time and thus my life. Dear LORD, draw me closer to YOU in prayer to seek Your leading and guiding. Let YOU and the leading of Your Spirit be the only foundation and motivation of my actions. May YOU be gloried in my life! I do specifically pray for the commitment regarding BSF. Please do speak to me clearly. Dear LORD, I will not commit myself unless I know clearly it is what You have planned for me.
* Whatever it is, I know NP is a calling from YOU and I am committed. Dear LORD, hold me and keep me.
* I still have not heard back from CoG regarding the support. As I drove to campus, my heart was full of bitterness. I was upset that the announcement was made at the very end, that there was no E-mail sent out on it, that it was included in the shorter-than-usual weekly updates, that I still did not hear back regarding it even if there was nothing given. I was upset at CoG, at everyone who chose not to give, and ... I guess ... at God for not making it a little easier. I thought of leaving CoG. I thought of withholding my giving for a whole year and then leave. What a moment of spiritual warfare! How dangerous is the power of the dark side. I had to come before God and ask Him to help my lack of faith and my tendency to walk by sight. Then I realized that I had been relying on CoG to provide for me, but that is different from relying on God to provide for me. It helped me come before God and correct my attitude. Well, I have been praying and asking God to "examine my heart and take away the things that are not pleasing to Him." He apparently has answered my prayer again as He did when I prayed the same prayer this past summer. I guess this is one of the spiky prayers and it often hurts when the prayer gets answered. Yet I have been learning to praise the LORD and be thankful for His pruning. I have also been learning to be patient with myself and the process. Dear LORD, please protect my heart and my spirit. Please help me to know YOU more and know YOU better, because YOU are the object and foundation of my faith. Please forgive me for my lack of faith and the urge to take things in my own hands. Please keep me from yielding to such temptation and choose to trust in YOU and Your provision no matter what, every time I get tempted. Dear LORD, sweet Jesus, I yield to YOU and ask you to take over my life, my heart, my desires, my thoughts, my feelings, and my all in all. Amen!
* It surely was nice to see NS again. It was nice of her to buy dinner for us. It was a jolly time to go sightseeing. Or should I have sticked to my plan of getting work done.
* I do feel overwhelmed as the departure date seems to come closer than I expected. Dear LORD, please give me YOUR peace, the peace that transcends all understanding. Dear LORD, help me prepare for the trip, spiritually, emotionally, physically, and practically.
* It was nice to have the first follow-up with Foundation material. :-) What a blessing and a joy it was to spend time together like that.
* My supervision pointed out my being overly active in BI during the intensive time of graduate school training. I know I have decided (probably since this summer) that I would make time for the things I really wanted to do, instead of letting the demands of graduate school run my life. However, am I now swinging too much the other way? I have always thought my increasingly active involvement as a result/reflection of my spiritual growth, God' s leading for me and His training opportunities to prepare me for what He has made me for. However, it is also a fact that I have been behind on my clinical record keeping and have not worked much, if at all, on my dissertation project. Is it really God's leading for me? Or am I letting my life run by urgency instead of importance? I guess this is a more general question regarding the pattern of my day-to-day living. Where is the balance between being planful and organized and being flexible? Dear LORD, please do help me become wiser with my time and thus my life. Dear LORD, draw me closer to YOU in prayer to seek Your leading and guiding. Let YOU and the leading of Your Spirit be the only foundation and motivation of my actions. May YOU be gloried in my life! I do specifically pray for the commitment regarding BSF. Please do speak to me clearly. Dear LORD, I will not commit myself unless I know clearly it is what You have planned for me.
* Whatever it is, I know NP is a calling from YOU and I am committed. Dear LORD, hold me and keep me.
* I still have not heard back from CoG regarding the support. As I drove to campus, my heart was full of bitterness. I was upset that the announcement was made at the very end, that there was no E-mail sent out on it, that it was included in the shorter-than-usual weekly updates, that I still did not hear back regarding it even if there was nothing given. I was upset at CoG, at everyone who chose not to give, and ... I guess ... at God for not making it a little easier. I thought of leaving CoG. I thought of withholding my giving for a whole year and then leave. What a moment of spiritual warfare! How dangerous is the power of the dark side. I had to come before God and ask Him to help my lack of faith and my tendency to walk by sight. Then I realized that I had been relying on CoG to provide for me, but that is different from relying on God to provide for me. It helped me come before God and correct my attitude. Well, I have been praying and asking God to "examine my heart and take away the things that are not pleasing to Him." He apparently has answered my prayer again as He did when I prayed the same prayer this past summer. I guess this is one of the spiky prayers and it often hurts when the prayer gets answered. Yet I have been learning to praise the LORD and be thankful for His pruning. I have also been learning to be patient with myself and the process. Dear LORD, please protect my heart and my spirit. Please help me to know YOU more and know YOU better, because YOU are the object and foundation of my faith. Please forgive me for my lack of faith and the urge to take things in my own hands. Please keep me from yielding to such temptation and choose to trust in YOU and Your provision no matter what, every time I get tempted. Dear LORD, sweet Jesus, I yield to YOU and ask you to take over my life, my heart, my desires, my thoughts, my feelings, and my all in all. Amen!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Friday, November 9, 2007
Thoughts on Prayers - November 9
* Oh, dear LORD, please quiet our hearts, silence any distraction, empty us of ourselves and the world so that YOU can fill us up with YOUR living wanter and a passion to live for YOU, and YOU alone.
* Adoration
* Reflection/Confession - Forgiven Sinner
- Agreeing with GOD; Thanking HIM for forgiveness; Repenting by turning around
* Adoration
* Reflection/Confession - Forgiven Sinner
- Agreeing with GOD; Thanking HIM for forgiveness; Repenting by turning around
Monday, September 24, 2007
Prayer List - Sept. 23
Cassie B. - health
Andrea K. - recovery
Betsy B. - recovery
Joe J. - school
Jen B. - small group
Amanda - Job
Kimi N. - Support Raising
Self
Thesis, Research Award Application, Young Adult Ministry, Prep for Nov. Trip, etc.
Church
Leaders, International Student Ministry, Small Groups, Visitors, Kids, Mentors, etc.
Andrea K. - recovery
Betsy B. - recovery
Joe J. - school
Jen B. - small group
Amanda - Job
Kimi N. - Support Raising
Self
Thesis, Research Award Application, Young Adult Ministry, Prep for Nov. Trip, etc.
Church
Leaders, International Student Ministry, Small Groups, Visitors, Kids, Mentors, etc.
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