Janie's Dialogue with God

i feel awkward
because it's been so long
since i've been near you.

i've missed you too;
i think about you every day.

But i've messed up;
i've done a lot of things
that i regret.

it's okay, child.
i forgive you.

i don't understand
i turn away,
i ignore you ...

i'm still here
right beside you.

i try to live without you
even though i know deep inside
that you're still a part of me.

you don't have to make yourself lovable;
i love you how you are.

even after everything I've done,
and everything that has happened,
would it offend you if i called you bizarre?

i am bizarre;
more so than you'll ever know.

this may seem strange,
but could I please ask you
to hold me, for a little while?

my child, i've been waiting for you
with outstretched arms.

(pp. 93-4; Dangerous Wonder)