God's Timing - Sept. 1

(9/2/2007, early morning hours)
Another sleepless night, after last night. I should have learned by now that those times are golden time for solitude time to be with the LORD. Yet I don't always go to Him, for example I didn't last night. Yet, here I am now.

I didn't do a journal entry before going to bed, though I do have something to record. So here I am, writing it down. I called home during my cramped, sleepless hours last night. To assure my lovely Ba-Ba & Ma-Ma, I called again after waking up this morning. It is amazing that the newspaper insert had a section on the natural remedies for such problems. How timely! A co-incidence? Only if you don't know the best Person to know. There is NO co-incidence in His dictionary, only Divine Appointments and Divine Provisions. :-)

Even more so, it was just a couple days ago out of the blue I thawed out one of my "collectible" cornish game hens. It was cooked the night before last, since it was finally thawed. Apparently, one of the remedies calls for chicken. Who would have known, except Him who is above in heaven, watching over me on earth! By the way, the natural remedy was not bad at all. Maybe I should consider to routinely cook chicken this way in the future.

I do pray for healing though. It is so hard to be pleasant while in pain. I literally can not focus and get myself to do anything remotely academic or productive, other than shopping for my new office and re-arranging my bathroom sink. (Definitely not anywhere near the top priorities!) Yet it is good that I got to talk with multiple friends. I suppose that's even more important than being productive with academics. It was wonderful to talk with M. Oh, how I missed her and her voice, her sweet spirit. I wish to visit her in the future and to see her lovely children.

It was nice to talk with ZH on spiritual matters. It is neat to see his interest and to hear his inquiries on spiritual things. My sweet Jesus is calling him to draw near. :-) Dear LORD, thank you for giving me the privilege to steal a peek every now and then. Please give me wisdom to be an instrument for you during the process.

I was a little surprised by Y's reactions to my not-so-gentle words. She was not only NOT offended, but touched, because she saw care, sincerity, eagerness for her benefit. Dear Lord, is this assistantship opportunity Your provision for her? Is this an answer to prayers? I wish I have prayed more for this matter. Oh, me of little faith! You would think I would have learned your provision and your abundance through the past encounters. Yet I still have such difficulties to walk by faith, instead of by sight. Dear LORD, forgive me for my little faith. Take my unbelief, and help me believe. Dear LORD, will you bless her and provide for her, even through this assistantship opportunity? Will you make it clear that it is a gift from You to her, because of Your love for her? Will you continue to transform my heart and my life to be more like Jesus?

What a sweet journey it is to walk with YOU beside me! The LORD is my Shepherd, and I shall not be in want.